If this past year has taught me anything, I would say it was hope. Hope can mean a lot of things to a lot of people but it is the one thing I try never to give up on.
I would say 2018 was the worst year of my life. My husband was having a hard time at work, only someone who works in finance or is married to someone who does can truly understand the ups and downs that come along with it. I can tell the way my husband answers the phone at work if he’s lost money that day. The volatility can be paralyzing, the highs are very high and the lows are very low. The cut throat of that industry can send anyone into a nervous breakdown and everyone is always a bad trade away from that.
There were days I longed for a simple life. For him to work a 9-5, to have a set salary and sell this big house and move somewhere that we could live comfortable without my husband always worrying about getting fired.
All of this was happening with my husband at the same time my dad got sick and I was trying to care for him, console my mother, take care of their house and my two little kids. There were days I would go out for a run to be alone and cry the whole 5 miles. I didn’t know how I was going to get through it all. Then when our dog suddenly died, I thought that was going to be my breaking point. I have never felt so low and I thought to myself how could she leave me now? The dog that somehow always got me through everything was gone.
Then 2019 came around and everything changed. Day by day, things got better. My husband got his confidence (or mojo as he calls it) back and started kicking ass at work, my dad got better and I had the best year career wise. I started partnering with brands, feeling more confident in myself and started making money for the first time blogging. I started styling more clients and everything just sort of fell into place.
So if last year taught me anything it is this, I’m stronger than I ever imagined I could be and that life has its ups and downs. You go through certain things where at the time, you don’t know if it will ever get any better but it always does. Whatever life throws at you, it’s just something you have to ride out because there will always be better days. Never give up hope.
The dress I’m wearing is Amur and I love the way their clothing fits. I’ve linked my favorites by them below.
