Yesterday my friend, Flora Levin who is also a plastic surgeon, gave me Botox for the first time. I don’t know if I would have done it if Flora hadn’t asked me to but I decided to give it a try doing the smallest amount possible.
I posted it onto my stories on Instagram and got a lot of DMs regarding it. Some people were appreciative for showing them that it didn’t hurt, some people welcomed me to the “club”, and some people were asking me if I have lost my mind.
The answer is, I haven’t lost my mind, I just really don’t give a damn anymore and I’ve really never been more comfortable in who I am. I know I wrote about this on my 40th birthday post but I always wish I had the courage I have now when I was younger.
I have ALWAYS been a people pleaser. I have always wanted to be liked by everyone and growing up when someone would reject me or not include me, it would only make me want their attention and approval even more. In the last month a few things have happened to me that would have sent me into a tailspin a few years ago, it would have kept me up at night, but now I just have the ability to brush it off.
I’m also so over being nice to people and trying so hard to please people who aren’t nice to me. I’m done being upset about it, I just am no longer trying to gain their approval. All that matters to me in the end is this beautiful little family I’ve created and the rest of it is just static.
So I did Botox, I posted a video of it and if you think I’ve lost my mind, all I can say is I wish I had lost it a long time ago!
